Frustration

Just when we thought everything was going the way it should be - we get another jolt back to the reality that this is not our plan!

The SDA has closed down for 2 weeks.  They are scheduled to reopen on July 8 and our dossier is now to be submitted on July 11.  Of course, that has been the rumored date of the official shut down of the SDA to transfer the authority to another agency.  We were told today that this is still just a rumored date and our facilitator was assured that the office would be open on the 11th for him to submit for us.

However, we are still very unsure of a travel date since the transfer of offices has to occur at some point and could very well happen before we are invited to travel.  The frustration of all of this news came together today.  We are sad that our thoughts of being reunited with Ana soon seem to be so far out of reach again.  We are angry at a system that makes no sense to us and seems to run by the seat of its pants.  We are frustrated that OUR PLAN of bringing Ana home during the summer when at least I am off and she can have some time to adjust to family life, learn more English and just enjoy each other, rather than in the midst of a crazy, school is starting again, activities are in full swing Raabe house seems to not be HIS PLAN.

Please pray that we can feel some peace in this process.  I have decided this afternoon that I need to use the time that has been given to me to do more to prepare for Ana.  We have not done much with the room or other items that need to be taken care of when she becomes part of our family.  It, also, wouldn't hurt any of us to have more time to learn some Russian phrases that would be helpful in country and at home with Ana.  I have used this day to feel sorry for us and even cry with heartbreak at the amount of time we still have to wait but, as I have learned, through this process since last September, no matter how much I think I have figured out how this is supposed to happen, there is only one plan that matters.  I just have trouble realizing it sometimes!